I feel like drinking a bottle of Listerine.
If I could put myself through an Insinkerator, I would.
Dance on a bronze hot plate.
Have my limbs cut off, then all orifices stuffed with maggots.
Then jump into a pool of writhing leeches.
Then run a lawn mower over myself, dive in a Dettol-salt solution, and then put myself through a car wash – without the car.
At least then I’ll be clean.
Is this what it was like?
ARRGH it has come full circle.
A bitch, karma is.
Why do people do this? Severe lack of respect.
What is so hard about being upfront about something that is going to be known anyway?
Why do some people think that they are the only ones who can control the flow of information?
No – information is like water, it will find a way. Also like water, it is better to receive information in a known, expected way (eg. drink) instead of an unexpected way (eg. tsunami).
Have fun with your so-called “control”. And of all the people.
….ay, shibal..
Kancil
1998 – December 17th, 2011
“Simplicity is the ultimate sophistication.”
We are taught for most of our lives answers to pre-determined questions, as well as the means and methods to arrive at said answers.
I think increasingly important though nowadays is the ability to formulate / ask the right questions.
In this age of hyper-connectedness, answers are a few clicks away – it’s the questions, or more specifically, the right questions that remain elusive.
To ask the right questions, we need to have a good working knowledge of ourselves. This remains a severely overlooked aspect in many societies – emphasis is given to external learning, not internal.
But it is only when the self is nurtured and indulged – often at the expense of others – that one is able to ask deeply insightful questions and therefore work towards finding deeply insightful answers.
What remains is to temper that insight with a profound desire to improve the world – any part of it, be it human life, plant life, or animal life. It is when these elements meet and mesh that great changes seem to happen.
I’m trying to look for my definition of an ideal future state. Climbing out of preset thought-boxes and trying to quiet my mind to the noise of orthodox convention.
I’m probably going to regret deliberately writing so ambiguously for the longest time.
When I think I can get away with just being myself, a sign presents itself telling me otherwise.
I don’t know what to do — I need a safe place to write.
If the idea of life was to achieve balance, there would have to have to be equal number of peaks to plateaus to valleys.
Say you assigned a fixed number of each, like 500. Also say you’d clearly defined what peaks, plateaus, and valleys in life mean to you.
If you’d had 2 peaks in a row, would you make an effort to engender one of the opposing elements?
That’s a little like asking about a blackjack game in a casino. If you’d gotten lucky twice in a row, would you deliberately make a wrong move on the next hand – expecting to counter a possible turn of the tide?
Or would you go with the flow – trusting that life will create balance with the assistance of time? In any case, here’s something humorous I read and kind of agree with:
“Luck is what happens when fate gets tired of waiting.”
Things always have a way of balancing themselves out — and coming full circle. It’s what makes the infinity symbol so intriguing – I still haven’t decided whether I am more scared or in awe of the idea of a perpetual loop.
I suppose it’s a reflection of how eventful one’s life is as one starts to notice more and more things coming full circle. The passage of time, the resolution of events (or not), and the resulting events all serve to start a new circle, part of the bigger loop that we call life. Our loop may end at any time — which is why it is important to keep moving.
The age of overconnected-ness has begun.
Between Twitter, Facebook Messenger, MSN Messenger, Yahoo Messenger, Google Chat, Facetime, Whatsapp, and of course normal phone and texting — there is no logistical limitation to getting a hold of someone. Unless the limitation is self-imposed.
Conversations rarely have clear beginnings and endings anymore — communication is evolving to a Push To Talk setting – walkie-talkie communication — no more long letters or emails, but short sentences and phrases at random intervals in the day.
Good / bad? I don’t know.
Technology seems to be pushing us to share more, especially in this age of live updates. But what good does it do? We are taught to filter our words and actions before actually saying and / or doing them. Then again, it may not even be a question of technology but culture — items posted may very well be filtered beforehand. It just seems a little counter-intuitive to provide a medium to stream one’s life in public in real time and having to filter it at the same time. I suppose the consequence of this technological enabling would be that individualism is strengthened; self-expression becomes more prevalent, and more people than before feel more free to be opinionated.
Where does this take us?
Of course there’s the other side of the coin — to balance the abundance of public sharing, there will also be an increase in private sharing. As more and more public opinions are shared, there will be more and more private discussions about those public opinions. Opposing opinions will fight to have their space to be aired, as well as to discredit other opinions — ironically, having unprecedented access and abilities to share information may end up widening the communication gaps between us.
I’m not suggesting that technology shouldn’t progress – I do feel that we need more credible sources of information — and ways to verify such.
Exciting times.
Is this what it means to differentiate? Is this how it feels to pick a path and stay on it, even though it seems like the most difficult thing you’ve ever done? Is this the time that defines the rest of one’s life?
Many things I could have done differently – but I wouldn’t be where I am without having done things the way I did. I’m sorry.
The ends justify the means.
“Black and white gives way to black and red.”
“A one-man army conquers nothing.”
“To learn something thoroughly, teach it.”
“Sometimes doing your best is not good enough. Sometimes you must do what is required.”
