Brainspill

Oh why oh why oh why you tell me lalalalalalalalalais..

I wan’t nobody nobody but you clap clap..

Do you believe in love after love after love after love after love..

It’s been a week.

It’s been a month.

It’s been a year.

I watch too much movies.  I could watch movies all day and all night.  Apparently, I can live without video games.  But not movies.

Why do we live our lives online?  Well, some of it anyway.  Some only show happy stuff.  Some only show unhappy stuff.  Some only show healthy stuff.  Some only show unhealthy stuff.  We only live parts of our lives online.  But those are the parts that everybody sees (and makes judgments on), like it or not.

“To be, is to be perceived.”

Translation: one only exists if one is acknowledged by at least one of the (other person’s) five senses.  In other words, if I don’t smell / see / taste / hear / touch you, you don’t exist.

Along those lines:

“You only miss what you know.”

We are taught to be unappreciative.  We are taught to be discontent.  We must always remember that sometimes inaction is an even greater teacher than action.  It’s not just about what’s done, but sometimes even more what isn’t done.  The more you eat, the hungrier you become.  If you grew up eating only rice everyday, you’d miss rice.  If you grew up eating rice and chicken everyday, you’d miss rice and chicken. 

You only miss what you know.  It then follows that the only way to not miss anything is to not know anything.  Yet we say knowledge is power.  But the reality is that the more we know, the less powerful we realize we are.  The more we learn about what we don’t have, the more we are dissatisfied with what we do have. 

Can you unlearn things?  Can you unsee things?  Can things be undone?  No, no, and no.

You build a nice partition in your head, sweep the past away into a compartment somewhere, and you move forward.  You sever those annoying lines connecting the brain and the heart, and you move on.  Feelings are a liability. Emotions are a liability.  It’s hard when you attach feelings to what you have.  When you have everything, you have everything to lose.

But do we exist to make ourselves happy?  Or do we exist to make others happy?  Which were we taught growing up?  Have we grown up?  Where does it end?  How far and how high do we need to go?  Do we work hard at getting everything and end up having nothing?  Or do we have everything and not need to work for anything anymore?  Balance?

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Pssh.  None of this matters anyway.  Why get hung up over questions whose answers don’t matter?

..or do they?