Humans need to move constantly.
Rest is temporary.
If you need something permanent to get comfortable with, do not use a human. Use a pillow.
Old fear
February 3, 2010I like reading younger peoples’ blogs. They seem more.. enthusiastic, to have more zest for life, that kinda thing. More to the point, they are seemingly unaware (or if they are), unafraid of the consequences of what they write. I find that admirable.
We are taught fear all our lives.
Be afraid of making mistakes. Be afraid of being wrong. Be afraid of making other peoples’ mistakes. Be afraid of being less than others. Be afraid of this. Be afraid of that.
I am sick of this.
However, 22+ years of brainwashing and drilling does not go away so easily. It will take lots of effort to break free from this paralyzing way of thinking. To my advantage, I will be living in an environment where I am solely responsible for myself. This should help somewhat. Reformat, reboot.
My life is my life; no one else’s.
That is all.
Cause & Effect
January 27, 2010
Inside joke for IE's.
Had dinner with an old friend earlier. Among the things we talked about was about how there wasn’t much black-and-white anymore, but more gray. Yea, similar to what I’ve been mentioning in my last few posts.
Among the things mentioned was antivirus companies writing and releasing their own viruses into cyberspace to infect computers and thus give those system owners a reason to purchase their software. How about the possibility of H1N1 being manufactured so a certain company(s) could sell the vaccine(s)? Doctors and teachers are the so-called noble, self-sacrificial people who literally work to put themselves out of a job. If everyone was smart and healthy (enough), what would they be left to do? Is it therefore in their best interest to keep some people less smart and healthy? How does the effort and reward system apply to these people?
It’s a circle that is simple in terms of cause and effect, but has serious reverberations in terms of the ethics involved. So where does it begin and where does it end? Does anyone really know? All we know is that the golden rule has been in effect since the great industrial revolution of long ago, when the rich took control of industries as well as education. “The one who has the gold makes the rules.”
“Feelings”
January 27, 2010I’ve told this story before about how before I learned how to drive, I was with a friend who (seemed to) effortlessly parallel-park his car in a crowded area. I asked him, “how do you do it?” His reply – “feelings.”
I was crushed. I didn’t have those “feelings” – does that mean I would never be able to properly parallel-park a car?
It seems those “feelings” – things you can’t really describe but you somehow have – are occurring even more to me now for some reason. As we go further in life, we are given more choices but it is less obvious which the right ones are.
We can then only rely on our foundations, which (hopefully) have been strengthened over time.
Jan 24 2010
January 24, 2010People always ask me “Where would you rather be?”
It doesn’t matter, I think. With proper effort, anyone can succeed anywhere.
That said, I am gonna make the best of this opportunity.
This holiday was everything I hoped for and more.
Time with friends.
More time with family.
A few more important people to see, and I wrap up this chapter of my life.
Damn.
Emo sia.
Jan 12 2010
January 11, 2010..ok haven’t been so productive. Eat, drink, sleep, drive. Friends, family. But what more can one ask for, in Malaysia? Racial/religious harmony? Hehe justkiddinglol.
Hard to blog; too much thoughts, too little organization.
Be back soon.
Happy 2010!
January 3, 2010New year, new decade.
New life, new challenges.
So good to meet up with all old kakis in Malaysia.
Time to be productive again!
Pace
December 25, 2009The pace I’m referring to is the pace at which we all operate; the pace at which we live our lives. Everyone’s pace is determined by their inner inclinations, or personality, in addition to external influences, such as upbringing. This means that everyone has a pace that is only their own; no one’s pace is the same as anyone else’s. Some might be similar, but never the same.
The pace of those who go to school is more or less similar, as they all start a certain year and end a certain year. There might not be a difference in terms of start and end times, but one’s inner pace will dictate how much one does and achieves in that time.
Everyone’s pace is influenced, but never determined, by the people and events around them. This helps us somewhat in that we can adjust our pace if we mingle with similarly paced persons. But how do we know the best pace for ourselves? How do we determine our optimal pace through life?
Is there a single, best pace? Are there two? Three? Or does the pace have to be variable, different every day, month, or year, depending on one’s phase in life? When people say “take it slow,” do they mean for the next two minutes? Two years?
It’s kinda daunting now that I don’t have the structure of school to determine my pace. I can’t operate at minimum pace; I don’t know how, nor do I want to find out. I can’t operate at maximum pace either; I don’t want to burn out early. I need to find my optimal pace. But how?
What will influence me? Who will influence me?
Need to develop a decision matrix to get the best solution..
